Peoples come and go, that's life. I know the truth that nobody will stay forever, yet nobody will disappear forever. I always try my best and give it my all to make them stay as long as they can. The bitter truth is I can't force someone to stay in my life, I have to deal with the fact that nothing I can do will stop them from leaving. I'm not a mourner, but when it comes with the fact that I lose someone who I love more than myself, the one who I care about and the one who I really can't afford to lose to, it will drag me into the black hole of depression. I can't escape no matter how I want to.

I don't like to deal with lots of peoples. I prefer to keep my circle as small as possible. I don't want to lose anyone, so it's better to keep it small yet long lasting. I know I can't handle much because I always put those who important to me before myself. Doing this will always fuck me up when they don't even notice what I did. Too much hearts to handle, and I don't even have time for mine.

I don't have much friends, but those who really close to me, will always be my brothers and sisters. It's easy to make friends, but it's never easy for someone to be considered as my brothers and sisters. They're my strength, the motivation that I need to keep moving forward.

My blood, my world, my brothers and sisters by heart, my craziest brothers and sisters, and my brothers in arm. These guys will always be my reasons to be happy, I won't do anything that might risk my bond with them. Not even a confession of love, I already lose too much, I won't take the risk that might cause me to lose anyone.

"Kalau nama pun adik beradik atau keluarga, gaduh macam mana pun tetap bersama. Setiap orang ada baik buruk dia, nak taknak kita kena terima baik buruk adik beradik, keluarga kita sendiri. Aku kawan tak ramai, orang yang aku anggap adik beradik, keluarga lagi boleh kira. Tapi, aku sanggup cagar nyawa aku untuk orang orang yang terpilih ni."