It seems like I'm slowly losing my strength to take any step further. Depression sucks. The demons inside my head keep telling me that I'm better off dead. I never thought that I can be this low, I never thought that it will coming back. The demon from the past keeps haunting me and seeking for my soul, and it's fucking hurt cause they keep banging in my chest. I'm totally losing my strength when I keep repeating the same mistakes after I already tried my best to be better. I'm losing myself when I thought that I manage to redeem myself, but the truth is I'm fascinated in my own illusion. It's fucking killing me when I already put my best efforts and it still fucking ruined. I know I can get through all this, I know that every scar will build my future self, but to rise when you already start to lose your reason to fight, it will takes a fucking long time. I'm trying to get the voices out of my head, but they stay like they are part of me. This will fucking hurts, this will fucking hurts me and beat me black and blue. I'm being hopeless, currently begging on my knees for a little piece of strength. I hope I know where to go, I hope I know the path that I should choose. I just want to be sure where I should take myself to, so I will not be stuck here forever with these fucking demons that keep haunting me. Just stay out my head. Get yourself together dude, just don't lose yourself once more, just don't break your promises to yourself, just don't violate your own words. I'll be okay, is that what you want to hear?