Finally, after drowning myself in my deepest thoughts, I finally found the reason why I failed miserably. This self reflection will shape my future. I'm not being myself these days, and I know I should get myself together at first. From the self reflection, I realise that it's a major mistake for me to compromise when it comes to my principles. I should never break my own principles, and I should never compromise with those who messing with it. Those principles are my defence mechanism against any rising issues. From now on, I won't hold back when it comes to my principles. Besides than that, I realise that another factor of my failure is I put hope in others when I should only rely on myself. I realise that when it comes to achieve my dreams, nobody ever give a damn about it, they tend to listen, show affection and pretend to care but it's all just an illusion. I should keep reminding myself that it's my dream, so I'm the one who needs to put everything on line without expecting any helps. The next factor is trust. I should really need to consider who I can really trust. I got trust issues right now, and I believe to keep any secret hidden, I should just keep it to myself, don't leak your own secret to anybody at all. Those secrets are deadly weapon that can be used against you, and don't hand the weapon yourself to anyone. Trust no one. The last factor is declining my own instinct. I should have faith in my own instinct as it helps me in many ways, and whenever I goes against my own instinct, things will always go wrong. Just don't let yourself been blinded with delightful illusion and been deafened with comforting lies. It's time to rise and get yourself back to the game dude, it's an end for this time pit stop. Keep in my mind, you can rest buy you will never quits.